Hey :(

          Hey guys, this seems so....ridiculous and I feel so childish doing it. Like a kid writing in their diary and hoping that no one see's it. Except for, it's for everyone to see and I hope someone reads this and finds comfort in the feeling of not being alone, or having someone relate to you. Hopefully you guys can, or hopefully your lives are super perfect and nothing bad ever happens, ever! <3 Kudos.
So the reason for this post is to redirect my feelings from being sad and upset to , maybe getting everything out to comfort myself and explain to you guys and myself why I am feeling this way and what I can do to fix it.
          So the boyfriend and I are researching places to live, craigslist hardcore and calling places up. Well, my bf is doing most of this right now, I am really looking forward to going on a walk and getting the f* out of dodge right now. [I am pretty sure that I've never used this phrase until now!]
Here's the scoop;
          My bf is on the phone talking to a manager of an apartment complex that we are looking into living at. His mom is at the door, (the door is very tightly ajar--like barely open) and she doesn't open the door but is just calling his name. I open the door and she asks about her keys. I recite to my boyfriend that his mom wants her keys. He asks the man to hold on , and then gets up and closes the door on his mom (it slams because of the wind.) So-One) RUDE! & gets back on the phone. He's on the phone and says something about more money to the apartment because of something I didn't hear , I thought he said since there's two people the rent would more. Out loud I said, "What the fuck." and it upset him and he made some gesture to me of his disapproval. I say, "You're annoying." Which I do regret saying because I am totally an empathize"r"  like hardcore, and yeah. He calls me this all the time, which hurts my feelings. With this as fact,  I definitely should not have called him that because of course it's going to hurt his feelings too.
          It's just that he gets so serious when he's on the phone, it's like the voice is more important then the actual person in front of you. I know that he is talking to someone who is important, but that doesn't mean you have to like completely ignore and be rude to everyone else. I love him so much though, oh so much <3
          I want to talk to him, but he's still mad. He already got up and walked away while I was typing this, and I could see him in my peripheral staring at me, with an upset look and came back a few minutes after. Now I just feel bad, I think it's best for me to just go away right now, and come back with his tension gone and his mind in a different place. I don't know people. This is just one of those things ya know. Anyways, my wrist hurts because of this angle. I need to walk it out.